Transcript: Mark's Story | Sep 27, 2017

[chimes ring]

Mark Buggy looks out the window.

He’s in his forties, balding and with a shadow of a beard.

He says I HAD THIS
THOUGHT IN MY HEAD.
AND THE MORE I TRIED TO
GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD
THE MORE I THOUGHT
ABOUT IT, RIGHT?
IF I CLIMBED UP ON
HERE AND DOVE OFF
HEAD FIRST, I COULD
BREAK MY NECK AND DIE.
AND I HAD THE VISION IN MY
HEAD OF MY KIDS CRYING.
AND THAT'S WHEN I
REALIZED, MAN,
I NEED TO GO TALK TO
SOMEBODY ABOUT THIS.
I NEED HELP.

A clip rolls with the caption "Kandahar, Afghanistan. 2009."

[rotors whirring]

The caption changes to "Mark Buggy."

Mark says IN A PLACE CALLED BELANDAY,
THEY HAD SOME KIDS
WORKING ON THE CAMP.
AND THERE WAS ONE
KID IN PARTICULAR.
HE WAS ABOUT
TEN YEARS OLD.
WE WERE ALWAYS
SMILING AND LAUGHING.
IT WAS KIND OF AN
ENJOYABLE PART OF MY DAY.
ONE DAY I GAVE HIM
A SOCCER BALL
AND HE WAS REALLY,
REALLY HAPPY.
HUGE SMILE, BIGGEST
SMILE I'VE EVER SEEN.
AND HE RAN AWAY HAPPY
AND WENT OFF TO PLAY.
I WENT OFF TO WORK.
AND THE NEXT DAY,
I'D HEARD A BLAST
IT WAS PRETTY CLOSE.
AND THE DETAILS CAME IN
THAT IT WAS TWO KIDS
PLAYING SOCCER HAD
STEPPED ON A LANDMINE.
AND I KNEW RIGHT
AWAY THAT IT WAS
THE BOY I HAD
GIVEN THE BALL TO.
THE AFGHAN POLICE WENT OUT
AND CLEANED UP THE AREA.
AND THEY BROUGHT THE KIDS
BACK IN GARBAGE BAGS.
THESE GUYS CAME BACK
WITH THE BAGS
AND JUST THREW IT
ON THE GROUND
AND BODY PARTS FELL
OUT OF THE BAG.
AND YOU SEE A
KID'S ARM.
I ALWAYS HAD THIS
MEMORY OF HIM SMILING
WHEN I GAVE HIM
THE SOCCER BALL.
BUT THE MEMORY OF HIM
BECAME THE BODY PARTS.
AND THE MEMORY OF HIM
BECAME HIS FACE CRYING.

A black slate appears with the caption "After checking himself into a hospital in 2012, Mark was eventually diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder."

Mark says THEY SAY DIVINE PROVIDENCE
IS GOD DOESN'T MAKE
THINGS HAPPEN, BUT GOD
LETS THINGS HAPPEN.
AND GOOD CAN COME
OUT OF THEM.
AND I STRUGGLED
WITH THAT A LOT
IN MY THERAPY.
I WAS LIKE, OKAY, WHAT GOOD
CAN COME OUT OF THIS BOY
STEPPING ON A
LANDMINE, YOU KNOW?
I WISH TERRIBLE THINGS
DIDN'T HAPPEN, BUT THEY DO.
ACCEPTING IT IS THE WAY
THAT I GET THROUGH IT,
BECAUSE IT DEEPLY
TROUBLES ME.

Another black slate appears with the caption "1 to 10 Canadian veterans of the war in Afghanistan have been diagnosed with P.T.S.D. 54 have committed suicide."

Watch: Mark's Story