Transcript: Waterlilies | Dec 19, 2018

A woman in her sixties walks towards a pool and jumps in the water.

[splash]

(music plays)

A caption reads "A film by Tanya Doyle."

The name of the film reads "Waterlilies."

The woman now sits on the pool edge wearing a red swimsuit, a cap and goggles.

She says I'M STILL, ER... NOT WHAT
YOU'D CALL A REAL GOOD, DECENT
SWIMMER OR NOTHING LIKE THAT.
BUT I'M GETTING AROUND,
AND I LOVE THE PEOPLE HERE.
IT'S REALLY A PLEASURE
TO COME HERE.

(music plays)

A clip shows a group of elderly women doing water aerobics.

The woman says ALL US WOMEN SAY THE SAME.
I COULDN'T GO DOWN AT MY AGE
AND SAY I WANT TO LEARN TO SWIM.
THEY'D LAUGH AT ME.
BUT THERE'S SO MANY OF US IS
DOING IT, SO THERE'S NOBODY
LAUGHING AT NOBODY.
AND YOUR AGE DOESN'T MATTER
ANYMORE.
IT'S JUST...
YOU'RE GETTING OLD,
YOU'RE GETTING OLD.
THERE'S NONE OF US...
EVERY MORNING WE WAKE UP
WE'RE ALL GETTING A DAY OLDER.
SO AGE IS NOTHING.
IT ISN'T REALLY.
[splash]

The woman says FIRST WEEK I CAME SWIMMING,
OH, MY GOD.
I CAME INTO THE POOL, AND I
WAS AT THE BAR GRIPPED TIGHT.
I WOULDN'T TAKE MY FEET
OFF THE BOTTOM OF THE POOL
I WAS SO TERRIFIED.
YOU KNOW, YOUR CONCENTRATION
JUST GOES WHEN YOU'RE AFRAID.
BUT I'M GETTING THERE.
IT'S NOT GOING TO GET THE
BEST OF ME.
I WANT TO GET THERE.

Another woman says CONSIDERING I WOULDN'T EVEN
PUT MY HEAD UNDER THE WATER,
BECAUSE I WAS ALWAYS AFRAID
I WOULD DROWN.
BECAUSE I WAS PUSHED INTO
A POOL AS A CHILD.
AND I HAD MY EYES WIDE OPEN.

(music plays)

Another woman says I'VE BEEN TRYING FOR YEARS.
I CAN GET SO FAR AND THAT'S IT.
I JUST... I LOSE IT.
IT'S LIKE... LIKE A BRICK
IN MY CHEST.
DON'T KNOW WHY IT IS THAT
I CAN'T JUST LET GO.

Another woman says I DO HAVE FEAR NOW.
THERE'S WEEKS I COULD GET
IN AND I'D BE GRAND.
IT WOULDN'T BOTHER ME.
THERE'S OTHER WEEKS YOU
GET IN AND THAT LITTLE BIT OF
FEAR COMES BACK INTO IT AGAIN,
YOU KNOW.
WHEN YOU GET IN THE WATER
SOMETIMES YOU HAVE THAT FEAR
THAT YOU'RE GOING TO DROWN.
AFTER A WHILE IN THE WATER
IT LEAVES YOU, YOU KNOW.

A woman in a black swimsuit says IF I COULDN'T STAND, I
THINK I WOULD JUST SINK.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
IT'S VERY SCARY.
WATER'S VERY DANGEROUS.
IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT
YOU'RE DOING IT CAN HAPPEN
SO QUICK IN THE WATER.

(music plays)

The woman in the red swimsuit starts swimming.

Another woman in a black swimsuit says I'M AFTER HAVING TWO KNEE
REPLACEMENTS DONE.
SO, SEEING I HAD THE KNEE
REPLACEMENTS DONE, I'D GO
BACK TO THE SWIMMING AGAIN.

(music plays)

The woman says WHEN I TOOK LESSONS, I WAS...
OH, GOD.
WHAT AGE WOULD I BE?
WELL, I WAS WELL MARRIED AND
HAD TWO KIDS BEFORE I TOOK
LESSONS, YEAH, YOU KNOW.

(music plays)

Another woman in a red swimsuit says I LOOKED AFTER MY MOTHER
FOR 22 YEARS.
NO RESPITE CARE OR ANYTHING
AT THE TIME.
AND I HADN'T GOT ANY TIME
FOR MESELF.
I HAD THE MOTHER TO LOOK
AFTER, AND I HAD MY LITTLE
DOG PRINCESS AS WELL.
WHICH WAS GREAT BECAUSE
SHE PUT ON THE SHOW FOR US
WHEN THE BOTH OF US WERE
FEELING DOWN.
I COULDN'T GO ON A HOLIDAY
OF ANY KIND, YOU KNOW.
AND EVEN WHEN I ONLY HAD
PRINCESS, I HAD TO STAY AT
HOME AND LOOK AFTER PRINCESS.
OTHER PEOPLE WERE GOING OFF
TO ENJOY THEMSELVES.
BUT THAT'S THE WAY IT WAS,
AND NOW I'M FREE.

(music plays)

The first woman in a black swimsuit says I LOST MY HUSBAND LAST YEAR
SO I'M ON ME OWN NOW SO
I'VE TIME TO SWIM AND DO
WHATEVER I WANT.
I MINDED HIM THREE YEARS, SO...
HE DIED LAST YEAR, SO IT'S
ONLY ME AND THE DOG NOW.

(music plays)

The first woman in the red swimsuit says I DON'T KNOW.
NOT THAT YOU'VE NO CONFIDENCE
IN YOURSELF.
YOU KNOW, YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT
PEOPLE WATCHING YOU THAT
YOU'RE NOT SWIMMING PROPERLY
OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
AND YOU'RE A BIT SELF-CONSCIOUS
GETTING OUT IN A SWIMSUIT AS
WELL, YOU KNOW.
LIKE WHEN YOU GO AWAY ON
HOLIDAYS, YOU'LL GET INTO
A SWIMSUIT NO BOTHER, AND YOU
DON'T CARE WHO'S LOOKING AT YOU.
BUT WHEN YOU'RE AT HOME IT'S
DIFFERENT.
YOU THINK EVERYONE IS WATCHING
YOU AND NO ONE IS WATCHING YOU,
YOU KNOW.
SO IT'S TO GET THE CONFIDENCE
TO DO THAT.

(music plays)

A third woman in a black swimsuit says I WOULDN'T NOW SIT DOWN
AND START CRYING IF I WENT
FROM A 16 TO AN 18.
AT MY AGE, YOU DON'T HAVE TO
KIND OF KEEP YOURSELF SKINNY.
HE DOESN'T CARE ANYWAY,
ONE WAY OR THE OTHER.
I DON'T THINK SO.
HE'S NEVER PASSED ANY COMMENT.
BUT YOURSELF, YOU JUST KEEP
YOURSELF HEALTHY.
YOU DON'T DO IT FOR STYLE
OR ANYTHING.
YOU DO IT FOR YOUR HEALTH.
BECAUSE IF YOU PUT ON TOO
MUCH WEIGHT, YOUR KNEES GO.
AND WHEN YOUR KNEES GO,
YOUR ELBOWS GOES.
AND BEFORE YOU KNOW WHERE
YOU ARE EVERYTHING'S GOING
ONE WAY.
SO YOU GO OVERWEIGHT IT
DOESN'T HELP.
I WAS A GORGEOUS SKINNY
LITTLE THING WHEN I GOT
MARRIED.
I HAD THREE KIDS AND EVERYTHING
WENT OUT OF SHAPE, EVERYTHING
DROPPED.
I HAD A PAIR OF BOOBS, THEN
I LOST THEM.
I'M STILL WAITING ON THEM
TO COME BACK.

(music plays)

A fourth woman in a black swimsuit says IT'S ABSOLUTELY VERY
RELAXING.
ONCE YOU GET TO KNOW THE
STROKES AND KNOW TO DO THEM
PROPERLY, IT IS VERY, VERY
RELAXING.
YOU JUST LIE FLAT, YOU KICK
YOUR LEGS, AND YOU MOVE YOUR
ARMS OVER, OVER ALL THE TIME
AND YOU BREATHE EVERY TWO
STROKES OR EVERY THREE STROKES.

(music plays)

Another woman says JUST MORE OR LESS MY
BREATHING AND TO GET TO KNOW
MORE OF THE STROKES.
LIKE THE OVERHEAD STROKE,
START DOING THAT BETTER
THAN I WAS.
YOU CAN DO THE BREAST STROKE.
WITH THE BREAST STROKE
YOU'RE GETTING FROM ONE SIDE
OF THE POOL TO THE OTHER,
YOU KNOW, BUT THE OTHER ONES
I WASN'T DOING THEM.
I USED TO DO THEM AND THEN
I STOPPED DOING IT, AND IT'S
MORE OR LESS TO LEARN THEM
ALL OVER AGAIN.

(music plays)

A younger woman in a black swimsuit says I MEAN, IN ALL THE YEARS I'M
COMING, I'M AFTER LETTING GO
OF THE BOARD TODAY.
HOORAY!
YOU KNOW, BIG ACHIEVEMENT.
[chuckling]
IT IS.
I'M DELIGHTED WITH MYSELF,
TANYA, YOU KNOW.
BIG ACHIEVEMENT NOW, THE
NERVES, BUT I SAID, NO, I
CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT.
YOU KNOW, THAT SORT OF WAY?
SO I DONE IT, SO I'M REALLY
CHUFFED WITH MYSELF.
I JUST FIND THE COORDINATING
NOW, MOVING YOUR LEGS AND
YOUR ARMS AND THE BREATHINGS
A BIT... YOU KNOW?
THAT'S WAY I NEVER TOOK UP
DRIVING.
[chuckling]

The third woman in a black swimsuit says I THINK ONCE YOU'RE WITH
A GROUP OF WOMEN AND EVEN ONE
IS DOING THE SAME THING AS
YOU, YOU DON'T FEEL STUPID
BECAUSE YOU SAY TO YOURSELF,
WELL, THEY'RE HERE FOR THE SAME
REASON AS I AM, TO LEARN TO
SWIM.
SO YOU DON'T PUT YOURSELF DOWN
ANYMORE.
YOU KIND OF SAY, WELL, WE ALL
HAVE PROBLEMS.
AND THE FACT THAT WE'RE ACTUALLY
DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THEM IS
BETTER THAN JUST SITTING BACK
AND NOT.

(music plays)

The fourth woman in a black swimsuit says I WANTED TO, YOU KNOW, BE
ABLE TO GO TO THE SWIMMING
WITH THE GRANDCHILDREN AND THAT.
I WANTED TO LEARN, YOU KNOW.
AND THEN IT GAVE YOU
ENCOURAGEMENT THEN TO GET
INTO THE POOL WITH THEM.
YOU WEREN'T AS NERVOUS THEN,
YOU KNOW.
YOU HAD TO SHOW THAT YOU WERE
BRAVE, LIKE, YOU KNOW, WITH
THEM.
YOU COULDN'T SAY 'OH, GOD,
NANNY CAN'T SWIM', LIKE,
YOU KNOW.
YOU'D HAVE TO GET IN AND SWIM.
BEFORE YOU WERE DOING IT
FOR YOUR FAMILY, YOU KNOW.
RUNNING HERE, RUNNING THERE,
AND DOING EVERYTHING, BUT
ANYTHING I DO NOW I DO IT
FOR MYSELF.

(music plays)

A woman in a red cap and blue goggles says WHEN THE LAST DAUGHTER WENT
IT FELT KIND OF LONELY.
KIND OF THAT EMPTY NEST
SYNDROME THAT EVERYBODY
TALKS ABOUT.
AND IT IS A FACT, IT IS.
AND YOU'RE MISSING HER
FRIENDS CALLING, PHONING,
YOU KNOW, ALL THE GIRLS COMING
BEFORE THEY GO OFF TO THEIR
DANCE AND ALL THAT.
BUT SUDDENLY THEN YOU JUST
GET ACCUSTOMED TO IT.
BECAUSE YOU SAY TO YOURSELF,
WELL, I DID THAT WHEN I WAS
THEIR AGE.
I WAS GONE QUITE YOUNG, LIKE,
YOU KNOW.
AND NOW, LIKE, IT'S GRAND.
WE CAN HAVE OUR DINNER WHEN
WE WANT TO HAVE OUR DINNER.
WE CAN DON'T TIDY THE HOUSE
IF WE DON'T WANT TO TIDY THE
HOUSE.
THERE'S NOBODY TO ANNOY US,
AND WE'RE BOTH VERY HAPPY, LIKE,
YOU KNOW.
SO YOU GET USED TO IT.

(music plays)

A woman says WHEN YOU'RE YOUNGER YOU
CAN'T SEE ANYTHING HAPPENING.
YOU'RE KIND OF LEARNING
EVERYTHING.
WHERE NOW, YOUR KIDS ARE ALL
GROWN UP.
YOU'VE LEARNED FROM THEM, PLUS
THEY'VE LEARNED FROM YOU.
SO YOU'RE KIND OF MORE
INTELLIGENT ABOUT WHAT'S
GOING ON.
YOU OPEN YOUR EYES TO THINGS
NOW.
YOU DON'T SHUT YOUR EYES AND
PRETEND YOU CAN'T SEE IT.

A woman in a black cap and blue goggles says HAVING SUCCEEDED IN GETTING
THE COURAGE TO COME TO LEARN
TO SWIM, IT DIDN'T BOTHER ME.
I WENT OUT TO ANY OTHER CLASS
THAT I WANTED TO GO TO.
I WASN'T AFRAID.
LIKE, FOR ME, SOCIALLY,
IT'S GREAT BECAUSE YOU'RE
SOCIALIZING WITH PEOPLE.
IT'S A CHANGE FROM THE FOUR
WALLS IN THE HOUSE AND LOOKING
AFTER YOUR FAMILY AND SCHOOL
AND HOMEWORK AND ALL THAT KIND
OF THING.

(music plays)

The younger woman in a in a black swimsuit says FOR YEARS LIKE SITTING AT
HOME AND SAYING, GOD, I'D
LOVE TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS
AND I'D LOVE TO BE ABLE TO
DO THAT.
AND THEN I DONE A LOT OF
WORK ON MYSELF AS WELL.
SO I THINK MAINLY BECAUSE
OF THE WORK I DONE ON MYSELF
I BECAME MUCH MORE CONFIDENT.
I GOT TO KNOW THE REAL ME.
I HAD NOBODY DEPENDING ON ME
BECAUSE MY KIDS ARE ALL REARED.
IT WAS JUST, NO, THIS IS
ME TIME.
AND IF YOU DON'T WANT TO
COME ALONG, WELL, I'M GONE,
YOU KNOW?
I WOULD JUST GET UP AND DO IT.

(music plays)

The second woman in a red suit says LIKE, I WOULD HAVE NO
PROBLEMS GOING TO THE PICTURES
BY MYSELF OR GOING ON ONE OF
THE TOUR BUSES BY MYSELF.
I'D HAVE NO PROBLEM DOING
ANYTHING LIKE THAT, YOU KNOW.
TO GO FOR LONG WALKS MY
MYSELF.
HOP ON A BUS, GOD KNOWS
WHERE IT WOULD TAKE ME.
MIGHT TAKE ME TO BRAY, MIGHT
TAKE ME TO SKERRIES, BUT I
WOULD DO IT.
I WOULDN'T DEPEND ON ANYBODY.
LIKE IF I FEEL LIKE GOING,
I'D SAY I'M GETTING UP AND
I'M GOING.

(music plays)

The woman in the red cap and blue goggles says I THINK THAT IT GIVES YOU
SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.
AND YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE YOUR
GOALS.
IT TAKES AWAY ALL THAT
DEPRESSION THAT YOU MIGHT
OTHERWISE HAVE.
BECAUSE IT'S GET THIS READY,
GET THAT READY, WHAT HAVE YOU,
GET ON YOUR FEET, GET GOING OR
WHATEVER THE CASE IS.
AND THEN YOU COME AND RELAX,
SO YOUR MENTAL ATTITUDE IS
RELAXED.
YOU'RE... YOU'RE BACK TO BEING
A
PERSON, THAT'S WHAT I SAID,
INSIDE AND OUTSIDE.
WELL, I SUPPOSE, TO BE A
WOMAN, LIKE, YOU GET MARRIED,
YOU HAVE CHILDREN, IT'S GREAT.
YOU SEE THEM COMING INTO
THE WORLD AND, YOU KNOW...
I JUST LIKE BEING A WOMAN.
I DON'T THINK I'D LIKE TO
BE A MAN.
BUT I KEEP SAYING IT'S A MAN'S
WORLD.
I WOULDN'T MIND COMING BACK
AS A MAN.
[chuckling]
YOU WORK HARDER WHEN
YOU'RE A WOMAN.
A WOMAN WORKS VERY HARD.
A WOMAN WORRIES ABOUT
EVERYTHING.
SHE WORRIES, WORRIES, WORRIES.
WORRIES ABOUT HER KIDS, BLAH,
BLAH, BLAH.
YOU JUST CAN'T SWITCH OFF
FROM WORRYING.
IT'S PART OF, LIKE... IT'S
PART OF LIFE, I THINK, FOR
A WOMAN.

(music plays)

The younger woman in a black swimsuit says I'D BE MUCH MORE CONFIDENT
TODAY THAN I WOULD HAVE BEEN
GOING BACK TWENTY OR THIRTY
YEARS NOW.
MUCH MORE CONFIDENT.
I MEAN BEFORE I MET ANTHONY
AND BEFORE I HAD MY KIDS,
I WAS JUST KAY.
YOU KNOW, THAT WAS MY
IDENTITY.
I WAS KAY, AND THAT WAS IT
AT THE END OF THE DAY.
YOU KNOW, AND THEN I TOOK
ON THE ROLE AS A WIFE, AND
THEN I TOOK ON THE ROLE AS
A MOTHER, THEN I TOOK ON THE
ROLE AS A GRANDMOTHER.
YOU KNOW, BUT IT STILL BOILS
DOWN TO, RIGHT, I AM ONLY
KAY.
YOU KNOW, LIKE AT THE END
OF THE DAY, THAT'S ALL.
[chuckling]
YOU KNOW?

(music plays)

The woman in the red cap and blue goggles says I THINK THIS IS WONDERFUL,
AND WHEN I'M HERE I'M IN
ANOTHER WORLD, AND I SWITCH
OFF FROM EVERYTHING.
I DON'T THINK OF NOTHING.
I JUST DON'T THINK OF
ANYTHING WHEN I'M HERE.
AND WE HAVE ANOTHER THING
HERE CALLED SCULLING.
IT'S LIKE YOU JUST FLOAT DOWN
THE END OF THE POOL AND BACK.
AND THAT IS JUST LIKE HEAVEN.
IT'S JUST... YOUR WHOLE
BRAIN JUST SWITCHES OFF FROM
EVERYTHING, AND IT'S GREAT.

(music plays)

A clip shows the first woman in the red suit swimming across the pool.

Music plays as the end credits roll.

Directed by Tanya Doyle.

Produced by Daniel Hegarty and Tanya Doyle.

Logo: Marmalade Films.

Made with the support of Dublin City Council.

Copyright 2014, Marmalade Films.

Watch: Waterlilies