Transcript: Lowdown Tracks | Oct 12, 2016

A woman, dressed in boots and warm clothes, walks through a suburban
wooded area in winter. A cemetery briefly appears behind a metal fence.
She then walks down a track in the wood. A man sits on a fallen log with
his back to her, beside a small blue and orange tent.
(Wind blowing)
(Twanging banjo music)

She calls and says BRUCE! IT'S LORRAINE.

He gets up and says LORRAINE!

Lorraine says HOW ARE YOU DOING?

Bruce says NOT BAD.

Lorraine says WE WERE WORRIED
ABOUT YOU.

Shaking hands with her, Bruce says AH, IT'S A PLEASURE
TO SEE YOU.

Lorraine says WOW, YOU FOUND A PLACE TO STAY.

Bruce says YEAH.

Lorraine says HOW HAS IT BEEN?
IT'S BEEN BRUTAL WEATHER OUT HERE.

Bruce says OH, IT'S BEEN COLD,
AND GETTING INTO THE SHELTER
SYSTEM IS IMPOSSIBLE NOW.

Lorraine says I KNOW.

Bruce says THEY'RE ALL BOOKED SOLID.

In off, LORRAINE says FOR WEEKS
WE'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR BRUCE.
RECENTLY, FOUR HOMELESS
PEOPLE HAD DIED IN OUR CITY,
AND EACH TIME WE WONDERED,
IF HE WAS OKAY.

Standing by the tent, Bruce says IN THE MORNING
I JUST PACK IT UP,
PUT IT INTO THAT CASE
AND THEN I TAKE IT WITH ME.
HEAD ON THE ROAD, DO A LITTLE
BUSKING DURING THE DAY.

Lorraine says NOW, I'VE ALSO BEEN HEARING
PEOPLE'VE BEEN STEALING
YOUR INSTRUMENTS.

Bruce says YES.
I HAD A BEAUTIFUL BANJO
THAT WAS BOUGHT BY...

In off, LORRAINE says IT WAS MUSIC
THAT BROUGHT US TOGETHER.
FOR A YEAR WE'VE BEEN RECORDING
BRUCE WHERE HE PLAYED.
ON STREET CORNERS,
IN SHELTER ROOMS...

On site, with Bruce, Lorraine says HOW ARE YOU GOING TO BUSK?

Bruce says I GOT MY GUITAR, AND I'VE GOT A NEW
BANJO RIGHT NOW...

Lorraine says GOOD.

Bruce says AND IT'S A BEAUTIFUL ONE.

In off, Lorraine says ONE MORE RECORDING WE WANTED TO DO.

Bruce says THEY MAKE NICE GUITARS.
WHY DON'T WE HAVE A SEAT?
I'M GOING TO USE THE...

(Banjo music plays)
As they sit on the log, full-screen captions read "Bishari Films presents
in association with TVO." A track-level view from an advancing train bears
the title caption "Lowdown Tracks."

(Lyrical music plays)
Bruce sings and says "WORK MY FINGERS
TO THE BONE
FROM THE MORNING
TO LATE AT NIGHT
THAT MINIMUM WAGE
IS GETTING NOWHERE
OH, I'M GOING HOME SOMEDAY"

A young man, carrying a guitar in its case, walks along a railway track.
A group of musicians appears.

A female NARRATOR says DURING THE GREAT DEPRESSION,
ALAN LOMAX
AND HIS FATHER, JOHN
RECORDED FOLK MUSIC
ACROSS AMERICA.
THOSE FAMOUS RECORDINGS
CAME TO SYMBOLIZE A PEOPLE AND A TIME.
IN A WAY, THEY BECAME AN INSPIRATION
FOR THIS FILM.

(Banjo music plays)
A group of buskers gathers on the street to prepare a show. One of them
plays a homemade tin banjo.

Red-haired Lorraine sits on a sofa and speaks. A caption reads "Lorraine Segato."

Lorraine says IF WE DO ANOTHER TAKE OF THIS,
AND THEN WE CAN DO ANOTHER
TAKE WHERE DAVE...
I WAS KIND OF HEARING ALSO
ANOTHER GUITAR
PART IN THERE
WHERE IT WAS CUT...
NOT THAT I WOULD PLAY IT,
YOU WOULD PLAY IT,
THE RHYTHMIC THING
PERHAPS AFTER.

Bruce sits tuning a guitar and says SURE.
WHATEVER DIRECTION
YOU'RE GOING
MAYBE COULD STILL
REFLECT THAT.
I CAN PLAY MORE
OPEN STRING...

(Guitar music plays)

In off, LORRAINE says AS A SINGER
AND A SOCIAL ACTIVIST,
I'VE ALWAYS LINKED MUSIC
TO THE CAUSES I CARE ABOUT
AND OUR HOMELESS CRISIS
DEEPLY TROUBLES ME.
I'VE BEEN SO CLOSE
TO IT MYSELF.
I'VE FACED MY OWN
DEMONS OF DEPRESSION
AND I KNOW THE FEAR
AND STRUGGLE...
WHAT IT TAKES
TO GET BACK UP.

A man in his forties with long blond hair and black
eyebrows says THE RICHNESS
OF THE GUITAR...
BRING THE CHORUS UP A BIT.
TURN THE DISTORTION, WILL YOU?

(chatting)

Lorraine says IT'S FOR A TRAILER FOR THIS FILM.

(Lyrical music plays)
Lorraine sings and says "LIVING WHEN YOUR
HOME'S THE STREETS.
SO YOUNG, AND ALREADY
KNOWS DEFEAT.
LOOKING FOR SOME COMFORT
FROM THE SCORCHING HEAT
SOME KIND OF HOLE
IN THE WALL."

In off, LORRAINE says I'D DONE BENEFIT
CONCERTS IN THE PAST,
BUT THIS TIME I WANTED TO
DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT.
SO, WE CAME UP WITH AN IDEA.
A RECORDING PROJECT
RIGHT OUT THERE
ON THE STREETS.
COLLECTING THE SONGS
AND STORIES
OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE
FALLEN THROUGH THE CRACKS
OF OUR TIMES.

(Lyrical music plays)
"EVERYONE NEEDS A PLACE
A COMFORT FROM THE STORMS
THAT COME OUR WAY
A MAGICAL HIDEAWAY..."

A busker plays a violin in front of a mural depicting a female jazz singer
and an open hand making a gesture with the index finger down. Lorraine sits
on the sidewalk watching. Then she sits and talks with the busker.

."..A HOLE IN THE WALL."

The busker says I FIND THE PEOPLE
ON THE STREET...
YOU HAVE TO PLAY
SOMETHING THAT THEY...

Lorraine says THAT THEY RECOGNIZE.

(Lyrical music continues)
"THERE ARE MYSTERIES
WAITING TO BE KNOWN.
WALKING BY WE SEE
BUT WE DON'T
HEAR THE CALL.
THERE'S A CRACK,
THERE'S A CRACK.
THERE'S A HOLE
IN THE WALL."

To the busker, Lorraine says IF YOU'D LIKE TO HEAR ME JAM,
WE'RE GOING TO GO THE CHURCH.

He says I WOULD LOVE THAT.
THAT'D BE GREAT.

Lorraine says LET'S DO THAT. LET'S GO.

In the church, a balding man plays the piano. A caption reads "Chris Dempster."
(Piano music)

In off, LORRAINE says MUSIC IS THE CORE ELEMENT
THAT IN SO MANY WAYS
MAKES IT POSSIBLE
FOR PEOPLE TO SURVIVE
THE MOST DIFFICULT OF TIMES.
AND THIS PROJECT WOULD BRING
THIS FEELING HOME TO ME
OVER, AND OVER AGAIN.

A busker wearing a cowboy hat sets up his equipment in a park.
(Lyrical Western guitar music plays)

"COWBOYS AIN'T
EASY TO LOVE
AND THEY'RE
HARDER TO HOLD."

Lorraine continues SUDDENLY, I STARTED TO SEE
A WHOLE WORLD OF
TRANSIENT MUSICIANS,
HOMELESS, OR DRIFTING,
BY CHOICE OR CIRCUMSTANCE.

Thin, with a straggly gray beard in his sixties, WOODY sings and says "LONE STAR BELT BUCKLES
AND OLD FADED LEVIS
AND EACH NIGHT
BEGINS A NEW DAY."

LORRAINE says WOODY CALLED
HIMSELF A "WAYFARER."
HE'D LEFT A DARK
PATH IN NEWFOUNDLAND,
ONLY TO GET STRANDED
HERE IN TORONTO.

"MAMAS DON'T LET
YOUR BABIES
GROW UP TO BE COWBOYS...

DON'T LET 'EM
PLAY GUITARS
AND DRIVE THEM
OLD TRUCKS
MAKE 'EM BE DOCTORS
AND LAWYERS AND SUCH...

MAMAS DON'T LET YOUR BABIES
GROW UP TO BE COWBOYS...

THEY'LL NEVER STAY HOME
AND THEY'RE ALWAYS ALONE,
EVEN WITH SOMEONE THEY LOVE."
(End chord of song)

Woody exclaims and says YEE-HAW!
Lorraine, sitting on a wall that's inscribed "Jack's Got Your Back," claps.

LORRAINE says EVERY SINGLE
SONG ENDS IN "YEE-HAW?"

Woody says YEE-HAW!

Lorraine says I PERFORM AS WELL,
BUT I MUST SAY TO YOU
I DON'T HAVE THE GUTS
TO STAND ON THE STREET
AND PLAY THE GUITAR.
I JUST DON'T.
I FIND IT SO BRAVE
AND SO COURAGEOUS.

Woody says WHY, THANK YOU.

Lorraine says I'M INTERESTED.
CAN YOU MAKE WHAT YOU
NEED TO MAKE TO LIVE HERE?
I MEAN THIS
IS A HARSH TOWN.

Woody says NOT JUST WITH THIS.
NO, THIS ALONE
WOULDN'T DO IT.
THERE'S NO WAY YOU
COULD CONSTANTLY
HAVE PLACES WHERE
YOU COULD PLAY
TO EVEN BE ABLE
TO PAY RENT.

Lorraine says RIGHT.

Woody continues BUT I'M ON A
PERMANENT DISABILITY.

Lorraine says RIGHT. OKAY.
PERMANENT DISABILITY.

Woody says I WAS ELECTROCUTED.

Lorraine says YOU WERE ELECTROCUTED?

Woody says I WAS TORTURED,
DRUGGED, ELECTROCUTED,
WROTE OFF, LEFT FOR DEAD.

Lorraine says OH MY GOD!
AND LOOK AT YOU.

Woody says TWO AND A HALF YEARS
IN AND OUT OF A COMA, CATATONIC,
COULDN'T TALK, OR WALK...

Lorraine says ARE YOU SERIOUS?

Woody says YES.
THEY MADE A MISTAKE
WITH ME IN THE HOSPITAL
AND THERE WAS NO
TALKING THEM OUT OF IT.
THEY WERE DETERMINED TO
DO THIS AND THEY DID IT.
YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE THE DRUGS
THAT THEY PUT INTO ME,
IT KILLS PEOPLE.

Lorraine says SO ALL OF THIS HAPPENED
IN THE HOSPITAL?
IT WASN'T LIKE YOU WERE
ELECTROCUTED BY SOME ACCIDENT?

Woody says NO, THEY SET THE RIG UP
IN YOUR HEAD TO ERASE YOUR MIND.
YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND.

Lorraine says I HAVE A FRIEND WHO
WENT THROUGH THIS.
I KNOW EXACTLY...
THIS IS LIKE, NOT A LOBOTOMY,
BUT AN ELECTRIC SHOCK, RIGHT?
THAT'S THE NEXT STEP.
WOW. AND LOOK AT YOU.
YOU LOOK AMAZING.

Woody says THANK YOU.

Lorraine says HOW DID YOU COME BACK
FROM THAT IN ONE PIECE?
HOW WAS THAT?

Woody says A LOT OF PRAYER
AND FASTING.

In off, speaking to the camera, Lorraine says WHEN I FIRST MET WOODY,
I ASKED HIM,
"DO YOU WRITE YOUR OWN SONGS?"
HE SAID, "NO, I DON'T
WRITE MY OWN SONGS,
BECAUSE I'M AFRAID
IT WOULD BE STOLEN."
THEN HE ALSO CONVEYED TO ME
THAT PART OF THE REASON
THAT HE DIDN'T WRITE
HIS OWN MATERIAL
WAS THAT THERE WAS A FEAR
THERE ABOUT UNCOVERING.
ONCE YOU OPEN PANDORA'S BOX,
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
GOING TO COME OUT.
ESPECIALLY BASED ON
THE STUFF OF HIS LIFE.

Back with Woody, Lorraine says IS THE MUSIC A PART
OF THE PIECE THAT KEEPS YOU
TOGETHER IN SOME WAY?

Woody says OH YES, NO DOUBT ABOUT IT.
(Guitar music plays)

Carrying his guitar on his back, Woody walks away from the entrance of
The Church of the Holy Trinity.

LORRAINE says I HEARD ABOUT
MARYANNE LONG BEFORE I MET HER.
SHE'D HAD A BAND IN KITCHENER
BEFORE SHE FELL ON HARD TIMES.

A woman in her sixties with long dark reddish hair speaks. A caption reads
"Maryanne Epp."

Maryanne says I WAS STAYING AT
CALGARY'S DROP-IN CENTER.
I REMEMBER ONE NIGHT,
FEELING ALMOST HOPELESS,
BECAUSE YOU JUST FEEL LIKE
YOU'RE BANGING YOUR
HEAD AGAINST THE WALL,
AS FAR AS GETTING PEOPLE TO
HELP YOU OR GETTING IT TOGETHER.
SOMETHING, ANY FORM OF GROUND
THAT MAKES SENSE TO YOU.
SO I REMEMBER LUNGING MYSELF
OUT OF THE FRONT OF THE BUILDING,
BECAUSE WHERE I WAS HEADED TO
WAS WHERE I KNEW THEY DID CRACK.
I NEVER DID CRACK,
BUT I WAS HEADING TO WHERE
I KNEW THEY DID CRACK
BECAUSE I WANTED TO HAVE SOME.
SOMETHING MADE ME STOP.
I HAD THIS MOVIE IN MY HEAD
THAT PLAYED WHAT WOULD
HAPPEN TO MY LIFE
IF I MADE THAT CHOICE.

Walking past another church with a guitar on her back, Maryanne stops at a
glass-case signboard bearing sheets of paper listing names. The heading
reads "Toronto Homeless Memorial."

Reading the list, Maryanne says THIS IS THAT.
GOD BLESS, EVERYONE.
I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT THIS WAS.
THESE ARE THE HOMELESS PEOPLE.
THIS IS A LIST OF THEM...
MAKES ME FEEL LIKE THIS
IS A THIRD WORLD COUNTRY.
THIS IS CANADA.
WE'RE BETTER THAN THIS.
WE'RE BETTER THAN THIS.
WE ARE BETTER THAN THIS!

In tears, she covers her mouth.

(Lyrical guitar music plays)
Maryanne sings and says "PEOPLE TELL YOU STORIES...
PEOPLE TELL YOU STORIES
IN THE LAND OF THE FREE,
IN THE LAND OF THE FREE...

OOOH, WE ARE ALL FREE...

OOOH, WE ARE ALL FREE...

HEAR YOURSELF,
MY BROTHER..."

Speaking for the camera, Maryanne says SEVEN YEARS,
23 DIFFERENT SHELTERS,
THREE DIFFERENT PROVINCES.
IT'S BEEN A REALLY HARD JOURNEY.
(Lyrical music plays)

."..IN THE LAND OF THE FREE."

LORRAINE says LIKE MARYANNE,
BRUCE SPENT YEARS
CROSSING THE COUNTRY,
MOVING FROM
SHELTER TO SHELTER,
A LIFETIME OF LOOKING
FOR PLACES TO BELONG.

With a long banjo on his back and wearing a confederate cap, in his forties with
bushy dark hair, a full beard and glasses, Bruce crosses a dingy area of town near
some railway sidings. A caption reads "Bruce Bathgate."

BRUCE says GROWING UP IN FOSTER HOMES,
I COULDN'T TAKE THE ABUSE,
SO I ALWAYS RAN AWAY.
BY THE TIME I TURNED 18,
THERE WAS 23 DIFFERENT
FOSTER HOMES.
I FINALLY GOT OUT,
WANDERED AROUND, TRAVELED.
I GOT INTO MUSIC.
MUSIC TO ME CAME NATURALLY.
IT WAS SOMETHING I ENJOYED.
THE ONLY THING I GOT ANY
PLEASURE OUT OF LIFE.
I ALSO WOUND UP WITH
THE WRONG CROWD,
WOUND UP IN JAIL...
IMPORTING, EXPORTING
DIFFERENT THINGS,
BUT I CAN'T REALLY SAY
WHAT THAT PRODUCT IS...
(Twangy lyrical banjo music plays)

Bruce sings and says "MOVE AND SHAKE...
OHH...
YOU CAN HEAR THE WHISTLE BLOW
A HUNDRED MILES..."

Bruce continues IT'S A WAY TO EXPRESS MYSELF,
IT'S ALSO HEALING.
IT'S BETTER THAN DOING ANY
OTHER DRUG KNOWN TO MANKIND.
THAT'S WHY I DON'T
DO STREET DRUGS.
SOME PEOPLE HAVE USED
THAT TERM, "PANHANDLING."
BECAUSE THEY'VE NEVER
HEARD THE TERM "BUSKER."
YOU'VE GOT ALSO
A LOT OF ATTITUDES
THAT USED TO BE OUT THERE.
"WHY DON'T YOU GET
A JOB, YA BUM?"...
EASIER SAID THAN DONE!

(Lyrical banjo music plays)
Bruce sings and says "HE AIN'T GOT
NO HOME NO MORE...
OH...
HEAR THAT WHISTLE BLOW
A HUNDRED MILES."

A girl in her twenties with long reddish brown hair walks at the edge of a
wood, near a rocky patch where a metal bucket over a fire contains a steaming stew.

LORRAINE says BRUCE LED US TO KAT.
HE TOLD US ABOUT A GIRL
WITH A GREAT VOICE
FROM THE PUNK HOBO SCENE.

Kat says ENDED UP HITTING THE STREET
AROUND THIRTEEN OR FOURTEEN.
THERE'S JUST SO MANY THINGS
YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT
WHEN YOU FIRST
PACK YOUR BACKPACK,
AND YOU'RE LIKE "THAT'S IT,
I'M NEVER COMING HOME."
ONCE I FOUND MYSELF OUT THERE,
I FOUND IT WAS REALLY
HARD TO PANHANDLE.
I WASN'T MAKING ANY MONEY.
I WASN'T EATING.
SO I JUST PICKED UP A GUITAR.
(Lyrical guitar music plays)

Kat sings and says "OH, WOW!
WHAT A FEELING
THAT BURNS DOWN LOW
WHEN YOU AIN'T
GOT NOWHERE TO TURN...
NO, NOWHERE TO GO
MAKES ME FEEL
LIKE SOMETIMES...

Walking by a wired-over warehouse gate, Kat says I HAD MY PHONE AND I WAS RIGHT IN HERE.
RIGHT BACK IN THERE
AND I MADE THIS WHOLE...
HOUSE OUT OF IT, BASICALLY.
I HAD A BED AND MY SIDE TABLE
WITH MY ALARM CLOCK,
KEPT ALL MY STUFF IN HERE
AND THE STREET-HELP VAN
WOULD COME UP HERE.
THEY JUST DROP OFF FOOD
AND SOCKS AND STUFF FOR ME
FOR THE NEXT DAY
FOR SCHOOL AND STUFF.

Sitting and speaking for the camera, Kat says I NEVER LEFT HOME BECAUSE
I WANTED TO PARTY. THAT'S THE THING.
THAT WAS NEVER AN ISSUE WITH ME.
I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO BE THERE.
I COULDN'T LIVE AT HOME.
THAT WAS IT.

A FEMALE INTERVIEWER says WHY NOT?

Kat says JUST ME AND MY STEPMOTHER
HAD OUR PROBLEMS
AND IT WAS DEPRESSING.
I WAS TOLD BY PSYCHIATRISTS
THAT I WAS A DANGER
TO MYSELF AND OTHERS
IF I WERE TO REMAIN IN THE HOME.

(Lyrical music continues)."..THIS MIGHT BE
THE LAST TIME
THAT I'M
GONNA SEE YOU..."

Kat continues I FIGURED I COULD BE HOMELESS,
BUT JUST NOT BE
HOMELESS IN THE SCENE.
I STARTED GOING TO
SCHOOL EVERY DAY
WHICH WAS A LOT NICER THAN
WAITING TO DIE EVERY DAY.

(Lyrical music continues)
"HANK'S GIVIN' ME
THOSE HIGH TIMES
CASH IS GONNA SING IT LOW.
I'M HERE GETTING WASTED
WITH ALL MY COUNTRY HEROES...

I'M HERE GETTING WASTED
WITH ALL MY COUNTRY HEROES."

Woody opens a door. He goes in and up a flight of stairs. The door closes.
(Hinges squeaking)
(Door closing)

WOODY says I PITCHED A TENT
AT THE DON RIVER
AND STAYED DOWN THERE
FOR ALMOST FOUR MONTHS
LIVING OUT OF THE TENT.
LIVING IN A HOSTEL...
CURFEWS, OF COURSE.
IT WAS DIFFICULT TO WORK
BECAUSE THERE WAS
NO PLACE TO...
YOU HAD TO BE UP SO EARLY.
I CARRIED MY EQUIPMENT AROUND.
THE HOSTEL'S A REALLY
INTENSE SITUATION.
I CAME ACROSS A PLACE,
JUST A STEP UP ABOVE
THE HOSTEL, A ROOM.
IT'S A STEP ABOVE, BUT
IT'S STILL NOT MUCH.
I'M A WANDERER
AND I'M HOMELESS.
HAVING A ROOM DOESN'T
GIVE ME A HOME.
IT JUST MEANS I
GIVE SOMEBODY MONEY
AND I GET TO LIVE
IN A ROOM FOR A WHILE.
LIKE YOU SAY
YOU WERE DEALT A HAND...
I WAS DEALT A HAND,
A ROYAL STRAIGHT FLUSH.
ANYTHING I EVER WANTED
TO DO, I COULD DO IT.
IF ANYBODY TAUGHT ME SOMETHING,
I'D BEAT THEM AT IT.
I HAD A ROYAL STRAIGHT FLUSH,
BUT PEOPLE WERE STEALING MY CARDS.

The INTERVIEWER says YOU TOLD LORRAINE
THAT YOU HAD SOME
ELECTROSHOCK THERAPY.
HOW DID THAT COME ABOUT?

Woody says THERE'S A BIT OF
A STORY TO THAT.
I COMMUNICATE WITH SPIRITS.
I'VE BEEN TALKING WITH
THE DEAD SINCE I WAS A CHILD.

The INTERVIEWER says WHAT DID THEY DIAGNOSE YOU AS?

Woody says AS A "PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIC."
WHAT THEY DO IS ERASE
YOUR CONSCIOUS MIND
WITH ELECTRICITY.
IT'S NOT FUN.
I COULDN'T WALK.
I COULDN'T TALK.
I COULDN'T CUT MY OWN FOOD.
FINALLY, MY MOTHER SAID I
COULD COME HOME IF I WANTED TO
AND I COULD BARELY
MUTTER THE WORDS,
"I WANT TO COME HOME."

(Lyrical music plays)
Woody sings and says "YOU KNOW I WANT YOU
YOU KNOW IT'S TRUE
'CAUSE YOU KNOW
I DON'T WANT
SOMEONE NEW.
YOU KNOW I NEED YOU."

MARYANNE says HOW DID I END UP IN SHELTERS?
WELL, AFTER I GOT BEAT UP
BY MY BOYFRIEND
IN A PARKING LOT,
AND THE GUY DIDN'T
GET CHARGED...
EIGHT TIMES I WENT
TO THE POLICE STATION...
EIGHT TIMES THEY TOLD ME
I HAD NOTHING TO REPORT.
I RAN UP THE ROAD
FROM CAMBRIDGE,
BECAUSE I DIDN'T TRUST THAT
MY COMMUNITY COULD HELP ME,
NO RELATIVES, NO FRIENDS,
AND NOT EVEN THE SOCIAL
SERVICES THAT WERE THERE.
THAT'S HOW I GOT THERE.

(Lyrical music plays)
Maryanne sings and says "EVERYTHING ABOUT
YOU IS A STORY
WRITTEN ON YOUR PAGES EVERY DAY
EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU IS DELUSION
YOU HAVE FOUND A VERY LONELY WAY
YOU'VE GOTTA REACH OUT
AND HOLD ON TIGHT
REACH OUT INTO THE LIGHT OF DAY
REACH OUT INTO THE LIGHT OF DAY."

Bruce lies on an inflatable mattress on a top bunk.

BRUCE says I GOT CONSTANT PAIN, SO I
SLEEP VERY LITTLE AT NIGHT TIME.
I JUST EAT ONE OR TWO MEALS
A DAY BECAUSE OF MY SURGERY.
I GUESS YOU JUST LIVE
IT ONE DAY AT A TIME.

He gets up, picks up his gear and moves out, down the corridor.

The INTERVIEWER says HOW LONG YOU'VE
BEEN HERE IN THE SHELTER?
IN THIS SHELTER?

BRUCE says ABOUT THREE MONTHS.

The INTERVIEWER says OKAY, AND WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS?

BRUCE says WELL, I DON'T
QUALIFY FOR WELFARE,
BECAUSE OF MY LICENSE
FOR BUSKING ON THE STREET,
AND I DON'T QUALIFY
FOR DISABILITY,
SO I JUST GOT TO MAKE THE BEST
OF WHAT I CAN DURING THE DAY.

Seen for the first time, the blond female INTERVIEWER, in her fifties, says SO YOU KNOW WHERE THAT I AM ANY TIME
THAT YOU NEED ANY HELP.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO
MAKE AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE ME
OR SEE ANYONE ELSE.
YOU JUST KNOCK AND IF
WE'RE AVAILABLE WE'LL...

Bruce says DO YOU HAVE TONIGHT'S
WINNING LOTTERY NUMBERS?
(LAUGHS)

LORRAINE says THE TRAJECTORY OF
SOMEONE LIKE BRUCE, WHO IS ILL,
WHAT ARE HIS OPTIONS REALLY?
IT'S NOT JUST THAT ALMOST
EVERYBODY ON THE STREET
HAS A STORY,
AND THAT STORY IS
TRAUMATIC ON EVERY LEVEL,
BUT THEY'RE LIVING ON
A DAY TO DAY BASIS
WITH P.T.S.D. AROUND THAT.

KAT says WHEN YOU FIRST
GET ON THE STREET,
YOU'RE JUST SO STUPID.
YOU'RE TOUGH.
YOU'RE LIKE THIS
PUNK ROCKER, SQUEEGEE KID.
YOU SEE PEOPLE DIE.
YOU SEE PEOPLE BEAT UP.
I WAS SEXUALLY ASSAULTED
SO MANY COUNTLESS
NUMBERS OF TIMES,
AND I THINK IT'S A PART
OF ALL OF OUR STORIES.
IT HAPPENS ALL OF THE TIME,
ALL OF THE TIME.
IT WAS DANGEROUS.
IT WAS JUST DANGEROUS
TO BE BY YOURSELF.
IT RIPS YOUR
WHOLE LIFE APART
AND HOW YOU THINK
ABOUT EVERYONE.
I TEND TO GET
REALLY... ALMOST RAGEY.
IT GETS REALLY VIOLENT.
I'VE BROKEN MY
HANDS THREE TIMES
ON THE SUBWAYS AND THE BUSES...
(Lyrical guitar music plays)
Kat sits in a subway corridor. Beside her a sign reads "Subway Musician."

Kat sings and says (UNCLEAR)
"TOUGH ONE,
SCREAMING AND CRYING
SATAN MAY HAVE
STOLEN MY SOUL,
BUT I'LL NEVER GO...
NEVER GO HOME
YEAH, SATAN MAY OWN MY..."

Kat continues PEOPLE WITH P.T.S.D. USE MUSIC
AS AN ESCAPE FROM REAL LIFE.
"I'M GOING AND SITTING DOWN
AND DOING WHAT I'VE
DONE MY ENTIRE LIFE,
PLAYING MUSIC
AND TRY AND IGNORE
THE REST OF THE POPULATION."

Kat sings and says "ROOF TOPS, GOOD OLD
MATTRESS, GUNSHOTS
[UNCLEAR]
SCREAMING AND CRYING
SATAN MAY HAVE
STOLEN MY SOUL
BUT I'LL NEVER GO
NEVER GO HOME..."

To the camera, Kat says I WENT TO SUNDAY SCHOOL.
I WENT TO BIBLE CAMPS,
THIS IS WHERE I
LEARNED HOW TO SING.
SO, WHEN I WAS LEAVING
HOME LIKE THAT,
IT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE
"SATAN MAY HAVE MY SOUL,
BUT I'LL NEVER GO HOME."
YOU'RE NOT THINKING ABOUT
WHEN YOU GET OLD EITHER,
BUT THAT'S YOUR
MINDSET RIGHT THERE,
IT'S "BUT I'LL NEVER GROW OLD."

Kat sings and says "SATAN MAY HAVE
STOLEN MY SOUL
BUT I'LL NEVER GO
NEVER GO HOME."

Lorraine says ARE THEY ALL
YOUR SONGS?

Kat says YES, ALL OF
THOSE ONES WERE.

Lorraine says WOW, THAT'S AMAZING.
AS A FEW WERE WALKING
BY THEY WERE SAYING,
"OH, SHE'S GOT
A BEAUTIFUL VOICE.
SHE'S GOT AN AMAZING VOICE."
I GUESS YOU
WOULDN'T KNOW THAT.

Kat says NO, NO I DON'T.
MOST OF THE TIME,
I DON'T HEAR ANY OF IT
UNLESS THEY PURPOSELY
TURN AROUND AND COME BACK,
WHICH HAPPENS EVERYDAY FOR SURE,
BUT I DEFINITELY HAVE MY CRITICS.
I KNOW THAT.
I'VE BEEN NAMED AS "WORST
BUSKER" A COUPLE OF TIMES.

Lorraine says REALLY?

Kat says YEAH.

Lorraine says YOU HAVE TO HAVE
A KIND OF ARMOR
THAT GOES BEYOND THE ARMOR
MOST PEOPLE HAVE IN LIFE,
TO DEFLECT OFF.

Kat says YOU HAVE TO HAVE A TOUGH
SKIN TO BE OUT HERE.
YOU HAVE TO HAVE
A VERY TOUGH SKIN.
(Subway train squealing to a stop)

LORRAINE says WHEN YOU'RE
A PERFORMER, YOU MAKE A RECORD,
AND IF YOU'RE LUCKY
WHEN YOU GO OUT ON STAGE
AS THEY MENTION YOUR NAME,
"YAY!" "THAT'S SO AMAZING."
I KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE.
IT FEELS GREAT TO HAVE
PEOPLE SMILE AT YOU
AND BE OPEN TO WANTING TO HEAR
WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO
SING, OR WHATEVER.
THESE FOLKS... THEY DO IT FOR HOURS
AND HOURS AND HOURS IN A DAY.
THEY CHANGE THEIR VENUE CONSTANTLY.
HALF THE TIME,
NOBODY CAN HEAR THEM
AND THEY'RE RELYING ON
PEOPLE NOT WALKING BY THEM.
THEY DON'T GET
THE KIND OF PROPS THAT WE GET
THAT KEEP US GOING A LITTLE BIT.

Bruce stands by a store window playing his banjo.
(Lyrical banjo music plays)

LORRAINE says THERE WAS ALWAYS
A TENUOUS CONNECTION
BETWEEN MY LIFE
AND THOSE WE WERE FILMING.
IT WAS BASED ON FEAR
AS MUCH AS ANYTHING.
THIS IDEA THAT AT ANY MOMENT,
ANY ONE OF US COULD
FALL THROUGH THE CRACKS.
I STARTED TO UNDERSTAND
THAT HOMELESSNESS
WAS A CONDITION
THAT CAME AND WENT,
LEAVING EVERYTHING
FRAGILE AND EXPOSED.

Maryanne stands in a little apartment, arranges a pouffe and says I ACTUALLY IMAGINED
YOU GUYS COMING OVER
AND HAVING A PLACE
THAT WAS GIRL-LIKE
TO PUT YOUR DERRIERES, VERY FEM.
(LAUGHS)
I HAVE A HOME.
I HAVE A FLOOR UNDER MY FEET,
WALLS AROUND ME,
AND I GET TO DO MY
OWN "MARTHA STEWARTNESS."
IN MY OWN NEST HERE,
WHICH AFTER SIX
YEARS OF HARD WORK
AND LEARNING AND GROWING...
THIS TIME I'M GOING
TO DO IT BETTER.

LORRAINE says I MET MARYANNE
AFTER SHE'D BEEN IN SHELTERS
FOR SEVEN YEARS
AND FINALLY HAD
A PLACE OF HER OWN.

Going in, Lorraine says HEY MARYANNE.
YOUR PLACE IS SO FABULOUS.
I'VE BEEN HEARING SO MANY
GREAT THINGS ABOUT YOU.

Shaking hands with her, Maryanne says WELL, I ALREADY KNOW
YOU'RE WONDERFUL.
I ALREADY KNEW YOU WERE
JUST FANTASTIC AND AMAZING.
YOU'RE THE "RISE-UP
QUEEN," YOU ARE.

Sitting together, Maryanne says SUBWAY SINGING IS WHAT
I'VE BEEN DOING.
I'VE GOT 30 SECONDS OR LESS
AS THEY'RE PASSING THROUGH.

Lorraine says PEOPLE JUST WANT
TO BE TOUCHED.
THEY WANT TO BE
TOUCHED BY SOMETHING.
THEY WANT TO HEAR THEIR STORY,
BECAUSE EVERYONE HAS
ONE, IN THAT SONG.

Maryanne says WE HAVE CREATED A SOCIETY
OF DISPOSABILITY.
I WAS TAUGHT AT A VERY YOUNG AGE
THAT I WASN'T IMPORTANT.
SO WE PERPETUATE THAT,
AND THE THING THAT I HEAR MYSELF
SAYING MORE THESE DAYS,
IS "I MATTER."
MY OPINION MATTERS.
MY STORY MATTERS.

Speaking to the camera, Lorraine says YOU KNOW, THE FIRST
TIME I MET MARYANNE,
I COULD TELL RIGHT AWAY
THAT THERE IS
A VULNERABILITY THERE.
A LOT OF STUFF HAS HAPPENED
IN THIS WOMAN'S LIFE,
AND YOU HEAR IT IN HER VOICE,
YOU HEAR IT IN
THE ARTICULATION OF HER WORDS,
BECAUSE SHE'S
A BEAUTIFUL SONG WRITER
AND A BEAUTIFUL SINGER.

(Lyrical guitar music plays)
Maryanns sings and says "HEAR YOURSELF MY BROTHER,
HEAR YOURSELF MY SISTER,
IN THE LAND OF THE FREE,
IN THE LAND OF THE FREE...

MEN FORGIVE EACH OTHER,
MEN FORGIVE EACH OTHER,
FORGIVE YOURSELF...
IN THE LAND OF THE FREE,
IN THE LAND OF THE FREE...

AHH...
WE ARE ALL FREE."

Lorraine says BRAVA, THAT'S SO GREAT.

The screen fades to black.
A building is dimly seen through the hazy atmosphere of a winter landscape.
(Piano and guitar music plays)
A stained glass window shows a winged angel and the Virgin, wearing golden
halos. The white interior of a church appears. A parson plays the piano.
Ramshackle Victorian tenements stand on a corner.

Making a dreamcatcher, WOODY says THE DREAMCATCHER'S
FROM THE WOODLAND INDIAN,
A MEDICINE MAN WHO'S
HAVING BAD DREAMS.
THEY SENT A NATIVE OUT
TO EACH FOUR
CORNERS OF THE WORLD
AND FIND A SOLUTION
FOR HIS NIGHTMARES,
AND CAME UPON A CAVE.
THERE WAS A DREAMCATCHER BUILT OUTSIDE.
THE GOOD AND BAD DREAMS
ARE CAUGHT INTO THE WEB.
THE GOOD DREAMS FLOW
THROUGH THE FEATHERS,
INTO THE DREAMER.
THE BAD DREAMS, NIGHTMARES
ARE TRAPPED IN THE WEB
AND DESTROYED AT FIRST LIGHT.
I HAD NIGHTMARES
RIGHT UP UNTIL I WAS 28.
THEN I FINALLY SLEPT IN ONE
PLACE WITH DREAMCATCHERS.
I HAD NO NIGHTMARES.
I'VE BEEN BUILDING
THEM EVER SINCE.
CHRISTMAS IS JUST...
FOR ME IT'S NOT RIGHT.
I SHOULDN'T BE HERE.
I SHOULD BE HAVING
MY OWN CHILDREN.
MY GRANDCHILDREN
SHOULD BE HERE NOW.
THAT NEVER HAPPENED,
BECAUSE EVERYTHING
WENT RIGHT OUT OF WHACK.
MY LIFE WENT OUT OF WHACK
BECAUSE THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD
SEEMS TO BE GONE OUT OF WHACK.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY,
PLANET EARTH. I HOPE YOU START
SMARTENING UP SOON
SO WE CAN GET THIS PLANET BACK
THE WAY IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE.

Woody shakes his head at the camera and says I'D LOVE TO SEE THAT.
I'D LOVE TO SEE THAT.

Kat sits in a subway corridor playing her guitar, with a dog by her side and
A decoration on her open guitar case reads "Merry Christmas."

Passers-by drop bills in the case, and Kat says THANK YOU.

Bruce plays inside a church featuring Christmas decorations. People snack and
party, wearing festive hats.

Kat walks through the snow with two kiddies.

KAT says AT SEVENTEEN,
WHEN I WAS PREGNANT WITH KAYLA,
I HAD JUST LEFT
THE CITY TO GET CLEAN
AND TO GET OFF OF THE STREETS.
I HAD KYLE ABOUT
18 MONTHS AFTER I HAD KAYLA.
I HAD A REALLY REALLY AWFUL
SPLIT UP WITH THEIR FATHER.
I MADE A DECISION
THAT THEY SHOULD LIVE WITH THEIR
FATHER IN HIS LARGE FAMILY.
HE HAD A JOB AND A HOUSE.
NOT HAVING MY KIDS
THERE EVERY DAY
WAS VERY VERY HARD
FOR ME TO DEAL WITH.
SO I ENDED UP
TRYING TO FIND THEM
AT THE BOTTOM
OF THE BOTTLE INSTEAD,
AND THEY WEREN'T THERE.
I ENDED UP DOING ANOTHER
BOUT ON THE STREETS.
WHEN YOU'RE ON THE STREETS
AND THEN THINGS GO WRONG,
IT IS SO FREAKING EASY
TO JUST GIVE UP AND GO BACK.
YOU KNOW THAT FAMILY'S
WAITING FOR YOU.
YOU KNOW THAT THEY WILL ACCEPT
YOU THERE "NO MATTER WHAT."
EVEN THOUGH I DID GET
AWAY FROM IT FOR SO LONG,
IT'LL JUST PULL
YOU RIGHT BACK IN
IF YOU'RE FEELING
YOU'RE ALONE.

(Lyrical music plays)
Kat sings and says "EVERY DAY, I TIME AWAY
I HAVE, DRINK MY PAIN AWAY
I'M ON THE ROAD,
I'M ON MY WAY
OH I'M COMING
BACK TO YOU."

Bruce stands beside a signboard and says THIS HOUSING IS ROOM ONLY,
GOOD IF YOU QUALIFY FOR RENT,
I MEAN, FOR WELFARE.
BUT IF YOU DON'T
QUALIFY FOR WELFARE,
THIS IS TOTAL USELESS.
LIKE MYSELF, I DON'T QUALIFY
BECAUSE OF MY LICENSE FOR BUSKING.
SO WHEN THEY TELL ME TO GO
LOOK AROUND FOR ROOMS,
IT'S A TOTAL WASTE OF MY TIME.
I DON'T KNOW IF I'M GOING TO BE ABLE
TO CHECK INTO THE OTHER PLACES.
THEY MIGHT HAVE A BED
AVAILABLE, OR MIGHT NOT.
IF NOT, THAT MEANS SLEEPING
ON A PARK BENCH SOMEWHERE.
I DON'T TRAVEL HEAVY.
MY FAMILY HAD BROKEN UP
WHEN I WAS 2 YEARS OLD.
DAD HAD A JOB WITH
THE CANADA STEAMSHIP LINES.
ONE DAY HE DECIDED
TO SURPRISE HER,
GOT HOME EARLY WITHOUT
LETTING HER KNOW,
AND FOUND HER IN BED
WITH ANOTHER MAN,
BROKE UP THE FAMILY.
US KIDS WOUND UP
IN FOSTER HOMES...

(Lyrical music plays)
Bruce sits on a bunk bed, sings and says "I GET LOST...
THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID TO ME
I GET LOST...
THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID TO ME..."

Bruce continues ...IT'S JUST THE REJECTION
AND THE PAIN,
AND BEING ALWAYS TOLD THAT
YOU'RE A BASTARD CHILD.
YOU DON'T REALLY BELONG,
SO YOU'RE GIVEN
THE TABLE SCRAPS TO EAT.
YOU'RE GIVEN CLOTHES
THAT ARE TOO SMALL
BECAUSE IT'S HAND-ME-DOWNS.

(Lyrical music continues)
."..OH I BOUGHT ME A TICKET
ON A WEST TRAIN
OUT OF TOWN
BOUGHT ME A TICKET..."

BRUCE says IN ONE OF THE HOMES,
I WAS TIED IN THE BASEMENT
ON ONE OF THE PILLARS,
FORCED TO STAND OR
SIT IN MY OWN STOOL,
GIVEN A BOWL OF HOT WATER,
WITH JUST ASPARAGUS
IN IT FOR FLAVORING,
WHICH IS ONE OF THE REASONS
WHY I WON'T EAT SOUP.
I WAS LEFT LIKE THAT FOR MONTHS
UNTIL ONE DAY THE POLICE CAME
OVER AND RAIDED THE HOUSE,
BECAUSE THEIR OWN SON WAS FOUND
TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR
BREAKING AND ENTERING
AT DIFFERENT HOUSES.
SO, THEY WERE LOOKING
FOR STOLEN PROPERTY.
WHEN THEY CAME
TO THE BASEMENT,
THEY THOUGHT I WAS DEAD,
BUT I HAD LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT
MY KNEE PADS AND ELBOWS
WERE STICKING OUT.
I LOOKED LIKE A SKELETON.
THEY THOUGHT THEY HAD COME
ACROSS A DEAD PERSON,
UNTIL I MOVED MY HEAD.
THEN THEY RUSHED
ME TO THE HOSPITAL
WITHOUT WAITING
FOR THE AMBULANCE.

LORRAINE says HOW OLD WERE YOU?

Bruce says I WAS SIX YEARS OLD.

(Lyrical music continues)
."..GET LOST
THAT'S WHAT YOU
SAID TO ME... GET LOST
IS WHAT SHE SAID TO ME
GET LOST..."

WOODY says IT DON'T TAKE MUCH
TO LOSE YOUR SOUL
OUT THERE IN THE STREETS.
PEOPLE JUST TAKE IT FROM YOU.
WHEN YOU'RE BEING CRUSHED,
YOU'VE GOT TO STRUGGLE JUST
TO GET A ROOF OVER YOUR HEAD.
YOU STARVE A MAN,
HE'S GOING TO BECOME A PROBLEM.
YOU HAVE A MAN WITH
NO PLACE TO LIVE,
HE'S NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO
MAKE IT LIKE AN ORDINARY MAN.
YOU CAN'T TELL ME HE CAN.

Pairs of sneakers hang from a building on a rope.

KAT sings and says "WHEN DRUNKS
CAN'T MAKE YOU GOD
YOUR FRIENDS AREN'T
WHAT THEY SAY THEY ARE
AND FRIENDS CAN'T
MAKE YOU GOD
AND YOU AREN'T
WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE...
HERBERT IS GONE..."

Standing under a raised expressway, Kat says FOR YEARS, WE HAD ALL
THE COUCHES DOWN HERE,
AND FIRE PITS,
AND MATTRESSES.
IT'S LIKE AN APARTMENT.
EVERY COUPLE OF PILLARS,
YOU COULD JUST TAKE UP A SPOT.
I DON'T KNOW WHERE THEY
EXPECT THEM TO GO.
THERE'S NO ROOM
IN THE SHELTERS.
WE CAN'T STAY UNDER BRIDGES,
WE CAN'T SLEEP IN THE PARK,
YOU CAN'T SLEEP
ON THE SIDEWALK,
YOU CAN'T SLEEP IN A DOOR.
I DON'T KNOW WHERE
PEOPLE ARE GONNA GO.
JUST TO BE HERE
BRINGS BACK A LOT OF SADNESS.

(Lyrical music continues)
Kat sings and says ."..MAKE ME SAY
GO AWAY, GO AWAY."

LORRAINE says "GET LOST, GO AWAY..."
THE LYRICS OF THESE SONGS
HAVE STARTED TO HAUNT ME.
I THOUGHT ABOUT THE RECORDINGS
OF THE GREAT DEPRESSION.
IN THOSE DAYS,
ONE OUT OF FOUR PEOPLE
WERE OUT OF WORK.
THERE WAS A MASSIVE, COLLECTIVE,
AND VERY VISIBLE PAIN...
BUT THIS WAS SOMETHING ELSE -
INTERNAL AND LONELY,
ISOLATED AND PUSHED AWAY,
HIDDEN IN THE
SHADOWS OF WEALTH.

(Lyrical music plays)
KAT sings and says "DAY IS DONE,
NO MORE LIGHT
MY FACE IS HOME TONIGHT.
RAINING, I'M GETTING WET,
BUT I HAVEN'T EVEN LAID
DOWN MY BED YET..."

Bruce makes arrangements outside a blue tent.
(Tapping noise)

LORRAINE says SO BRUCE, SINCE
I SAW YOU, THIS IS YOUR HOME.

BRUCE says YEAH, TEMPORARILY
IT'S MY HOME.

LORRAINE says DID YOU LEAVE
SHELTER OF YOUR OWN WILL?

BRUCE says ON MY OWN FREE WILL, I LEFT
BECAUSE IN THE LAST MEETING
I WAS SUPPOSED TO
HAVE WITH THEM,
THE HOUSING WORKER...
I WAS GOING TO HIT HIM.
SO I THOUGHT "INSTEAD OF GONG TO JAIL,
I'LL JUST WALK AWAY
FROM THE SITUATION.
THAT WAY I'M A FREE MAN.
I DON'T WIND UP IN JAIL."
(Banjo music plays)

LORRAINE says IF I HAD
PRE-CONCEIVED NOTIONS
BECAUSE I'D WORKED AROUND
HOMELESS ISSUES BEFORE,
THEY WERE COMPLETELY SHATTERED.
AND I LEARNED A WHOLE
OTHER BUNCH OF STUFF
THAT I DIDN'T KNOW.
FROM THE DIGNITY
UM, AND THE, YOU KNOW,
THE INSPIRATION
IN WHICH THESE PEOPLE
ARE PUTTING THEIR
LIVES BACK TOGETHER.
OR TRYING,
NO MATTER HOW HARD
WE ARE MAKING IT FOR THEM.

Woody sits with eyes half-closed and fingertips together
(SIGHS)

Woody says I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR,
AND I COULD SEE THAT THERE
WERE TWO FACES OF MINE.
IT WAS LIKE THERE
WAS AN EVIL IN THERE...
I WAS A GENTLE MAN.
ONCE I REALIZED THAT THERE
WAS AN EVIL MESSING WITH ME,
I WENT TO THE PRIEST'S
HOUSE FOR HELP,
BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT
THEY WOULD KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I TURNED TO THE PEOPLE
THAT I TRUSTED.
I THOUGHT THEY WERE
HERE IN HIS NAME.
I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT THAT WAS
JUST A PURE SINISTER EVIL
THAT IS JUST... UNACCEPTABLE.
HOW THEY ARE STILL IN
POWER TODAY TERRIFIES ME.
THAT THE MOST PROFICIENT
CHILD PREDATORS THAT EVER EXISTED
WERE RIDING CHRIST'S COATTAIL,
MANIPULATING AND PERVERTING
INNOCENT LITTLE CHILDREN.
THEN YOU GOT TO TRY
TO FIND YOUR WAY BACK.
HOW DO YOU FIND YOUR WAY BACK
AFTER THEY'VE DONE THAT TO YOU?
I WANTED TO BE FORGIVEN
FOR THIS SIN THAT I DIDN'T DO.
I REMEMBER A QUOTE
FROM THE BIBLE SAYING,
"IF YOUR EYE IS A SIN
TO THEE, PLUCK IT OUT."
I WAS TAKING
THE EYE OUT OF MY HEAD,
AND A POLICE
OFFICER INTERVENED.
HE TOOK ME FROM
THE BACK OF THE COP CAR
IN A STRAITJACKET,
LOCKED ME UP IN THERE,
AND THEY BASICALLY
THREW AWAY THE KEY.
IN ORDER TO BE FREE FROM THEM,
I HAD TO BE ABLE
TO FORGIVE THEM.
'CAUSE IF THEY'D KNOWN
WHAT THEY WERE DOING,
THEY WOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT.
YOU DON'T DO THAT TO
ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.

(Lyrical music plays)
Woody sings and says "I DON'T HANG PICTURES
'CAUSE THIS PLACE,
IT JUST AIN'T HOME.
I TRAVEL LIGHTLY,
'CAUSE I JUST NEVER KNOW
WHEN I MIGHT HAVE TO RAMBLE
NEVER KNOW WHEN I
MIGHT HAVE TO ROLL

To Kat, the INTERVIEWER says THANK YOU FOR
LETTING ME INTO YOUR HOME.
(LAUGHS)

Kat says YES, MY HUMBLE ABODE, I GUESS.
(LAUGHS)

The INTERVIEWER says FROM WHERE IT ALL STARTED,
IT'S PRETTY AWESOME.
YOU HAVE A GREAT GUY
AND YOU HAVE A PLACE.

Kat says IF YOU LOOK AROUND MY
HOUSE, YOU CAN TELL.
I DON'T HAVE A LOT OF
THE TRINKETS THAT EVERYBODY HAS.
YOU'RE ALWAYS TERRIFIED
OF THINGS COLLAPSING AROUND YOU.
WHEN THINGS COLLAPSE AROUND YOU,
YOU OFTEN END UP
LEAVING ALL OF YOUR THINGS.
SO IT'S JUST BETTER TO JUST
NOT HAVE THAT ATTACHMENT
AND THEN JUST NOT HAVE THE THINGS,
THAN HAVE THEM AND THEN LOSE THEM.
I WAS A YEAR AND A HALF
AND MY SISTER WAS SIX MONTHS OLD,
AND MY MOTHER WAS 22, AND MY DAD WAS 24,
AND HE WAS BRINGING HER BACK FROM WORK.
NOW THERE'S A LIGHT OR SOMETHING
WHERE THE ACCIDENT HAPPENED,
BUT IT WAS QUITE COMMON
FOR ACCIDENTS TO HAPPEN THERE.
MY DAD WAS DEVASTATED, OBVIOUSLY.
I DON'T REMEMBER MUCH OF MY MOM.

(Guitar music plays)

Kat continues WHEN I WAS A KID,
I WOULD JUST RUN TO THE DOOR
EVERY TIME THE DOOR OPENED,
BECAUSE I THOUGHT MOM WAS HOME.
FOR YEARS, I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND
THAT SHE WASN'T COMING HOME.
I WAS IN THE CAR WHEN
THE ACCIDENT HAPPENED.
I COULD'VE JUST ALWAYS HAD P.T.S.D.

(Lyrical guitar music plays)
"WON'T YOU COME AND BE WITH... WITH ME
BECAUSE I CAN SEE LIGHTS
(UNCLEAR)
I SEE THE UGLINESS BENEATH,
I SEE THE UGLINESS BENEATH."

Maryanne says NOBODY IN MY HOUSE
SAW ME AS ANYTHING,
BUT A PROBLEM.
WHEN I WAS SIX,
I HAD A TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE.
IT WAS NEVER VALIDATED,
AND BECAUSE OF THAT,
IT STUNTED A PART OF
MY GROWTH AS AN ARTIST,
AS A WOMAN,
AND SO MANY THINGS.
I'VE HAD TO
PAINSTAKINGLY GO BACK
AND RECONNECT WITH
THAT SIX YEAR OLD
AND SAY, "OKAY, I KNOW
THAT BIG PEOPLE SCARED YOU
AND HURT YOU AND IGNORED YOU,
AND PRETENDED NOTHING HAPPENED,
BUT SOMETHING DID THAT CHANGED YOU."
MUSIC IS WHAT GOT ME
INTO TROUBLE, SINGING.
THE GUY AT PIANO, HE TOLD ME
THAT HE WOULD LET ME PLAY.
ASKED ME WHY I NEVER PLAYED PIANO,
AND WHY I PLAYED GUITAR INSTEAD.
I COULDN'T FEEL
THE JOY OF SINGING,
WITHOUT FEELING THE SHAME.

(Lyrical music plays)
Maryanne stands playing the guitar at a railway startion.

She sings and says "THIS IS THE AIR I BREATHE,
THIS IS THE AIR I BREATHE,
YOUR HOLY PRESENCE..."

A passer-by drops a coin.

Maryanne says THANK YOU, VERY MUCH.

Maryanne continues and says "YEAH.
THIS IS MY DAILY BREAD,
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SMILE,
THANK YOU.
THIS IS MY DAILY BREAD
(UNCLEAR) TO ME..."

Maryanne says I BELIEVE THE HEALING
IS RIGHT IN THE MUSIC.
THAT'S MY HEART.
IT'S WHAT I HAVE TO GIVE THE WORLD.
IT'S MUSIC AS PURE HEART
AS I COULD MAINTAIN
IN A HARD WORLD.
IT'S LIKE YOU DISAPPEAR,
AND ALL THAT'S
THERE IS THE SONG.

BRUCE, setting up his bed at nightfall, says WELL, I'VE BEEN
SLEEPING IN THIS PARK NOW
FOR ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF,
MAYBE TWO MONTHS.
I HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS,
BUT I DIDN'T BRING MY
PEANUTS WITH ME TODAY.
I USUALLY HAVE A LOT OF
SQUIRRELS COME UP AROUND ME.
THEY MAKE ME FEEL GOOD INSIDE.

(Dramatic music plays)

Bruce continues MY FUTURE IS NOT MUCH.
I HAVEN'T GOT MUCH
LEFT IN THIS WORLD.
WITH THIS ILLNESS
THAT'S GOING THROUGH ME,
AND ALL THE PROBLEMS I'VE
GOT, I DON'T HAVE LONG.
THAT'S WHY THAT ONE SONG,
I'M TAKING WITH ME AS A LEGACY.
I MIGHT RECORD THAT SONG SOME DAY.

LORRAINE says COULD YOU PLAY
THE FIRST EIGHT BARS OF IT?

Bruce says GET LOST?

Bruce plays with other musicians in a pub.

(Lyrical guitar music plays)
BRUCE sings and says "I WORK MY FINGERS
WORK MY FINGERS TO THE BONE...
THE MINIMUM WAGE
IS GETTING ME DOWN
SO I BOUGHT ME A TICKET
(UNCLEAR)
SHE SAID GET LOST
THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID TO ME
GET LOST...
OH, THAT'S WHAT
SHE SAID TO ME
GET LOST
OH, THAT'S WHAT
SHE SAID TO ME...

I WOKE UP LATE ONE MORNING
AND I TOOK A LOOK AROUND.
MY WIFE WAS NOWHERE...
SHE WAS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND
SO I WENT TO THE TAVERN
JUST TO HAVE MYSELF A DRINK...
(Winds up with a final chord)

LORRAINE says OH MY GOD, THAT WAS SO GREAT.
DON'T STOP!
YOU KNOW WHAT,
EVEN IF YOU FEEL LIKE...

In off, Lorraine says THESE RECORDINGS,
THEY'RE NOT
JUST MUSIC ON TAPE.
THEY'RE THE STAMP
OF A PERIOD IN TIME.
WHERE PEOPLE WHO WERE
IN THE CRACKS OF TIME,
WERE NOT FORGOTTEN,
JUST FOR THIS BRIEF MOMENT.

Maryanne appears and says HELLO.

Lorraine says HI, WELCOME TO YOUR
RECORDING SESSION.
HOW ARE YOU?

Maryanne says HOLDING IT TOGETHER.

Lorraine says YOU'RE GOOD.

In off, Lorraine says I KNEW THAT MY BAND
WOULD BE HAPPY TO COME INTO THE STUDIO
AND LAY DOWN THESE TRACKS.

On site, Lorraine says FIRST OF ALL,
I'M GOING TO INTRODUCE YOU
TO YOUR FABULOUS BAND.

Maryanne says HEY, MY FABULOUS BAND!

Lorraine says THIS IS MARYANNE.
THIS IS WILSON.

Maryanne says HI WILSON, HI.

Lorraine says THIS IS RICH.

Maryanne says NICE TO MEET YOU, DARLING.

Rich says THANK YOU.

Lorraine says RICH TENDS TO THINK HE'S
THE HANDSOMEST PERSON AROUND,
BUT I REALLY WOULDN'T
PAY ATTENTION TO HIM.

RICH says EVERYONE BEGS TO DIFFER.

Maryanne says NICE TO MEET YOU, WILSON.
HANDSOME, OKAY.

Lorraine says THIS IS TIM.
TIM IS ALSO A MUSICIAN.

Maryanne says HELLO TIM, NICE
TO MEET YOU, HI. AND YOUR ENGINEER.

Lorraine says THIS IS MARYANNE.

Maryanne says HELLO.

Lorraine says THIS IS THE CAMERA PERSON.

Maryanne says YEAH, HE DOES THAT.
HE STICKS IT RIGHT IN YOUR FACE.

Lorraine says THIS IS DAVID GRAY,
YOUR MUSICAL DIRECTOR.

Maryanne says HELLO DAVID,
NICE TO MEET YOU.

David says THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Lorraine says BELOVED SINGER WHO'S GOING
TO SING ALONG WITH YOU,
MISHA GRAHAM.
THIS IS MARYANNE,
AND THIS IS MICHELLE.

Maryanne says HEY, THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Lorraine says KEYBOARD PLAYER AND SINGER,
AND YOU KNOW ME.
LET'S GO IN HERE FOR A SEC.

Maryanne says OKAY, OKAY.
LEAD THE WAY.

They go through a door.

Sitting with Maryanne, who holds her guitar, Lorraine says WE JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT
WE'VE INSTRUMENTALIZED THE SONG
IN A PROPER WAY FOR YOU.
THAT'S THE KEY THING,
THE BED TRACK.
OKAY EVERYBODY.
(COUNTING IN)
(Tapping drumsticks for the beat)
(Lyrical music plays)

MARYANNE sings and says "I'M GONNA TELL YOU
THE BIG WORDS
I KNOW YOU DON'T
WANNA HEAR THEM...
I'M GONNA SAY THEM ANYWAY
CAUSE I REALLY LIKE MYSELF
IT'S ONLY 'CAUSE I CARE
DON'T WANNA WASTE MY TIME
GONNA TELL YOU
THE BIG WORDS
AND I PROMISE
YOU'LL BE FINE
BA BA BA BA
I PROMISE YOU'LL BE FINE
BA BA BA BA
PETER PAN HAS GOTTA GO."

Lorraine says MARYANNE, WE'RE JUST
GOING TO HAVE A LISTEN.
DO YOU WANT TO JUST TAKE
YOUR HEADPHONES OFF?

On the recording, MARYANNE sings and says "WHAT I NEED IS A MAN
ONE THAT LETS ME BE MYSELF
ONE WHO HAS A PLAN
IT'S ONLY 'CAUSE I CARE...

Listening to the recording, Maryanne breaks down and sobs.

."..DON'T WANNA WASTE MY TIME
I'M GONNA TELL YOU
THE BIG WORDS
AND I PROMISE YOU'LL BE FINE
BA BA BA BA
YES, I PROMISE
I'LL BE FINE."

Lorraine says WE'RE GIVING THEM
THE ONE THING,
IN A HARD COPY,
IE A RECORDING,
THAT NOBODY CAN
EVER TAKE AWAY.
THIS IS SOMETHING THAT
NOBODY'S GOING TO STEAL.

Woody appears and says HOW'S EVERYBODY?

Lorraine says HI, HOW ARE YOU?
DO YOU KNOW MARYANNE?
HAVE YOU MET HER YET?

Maryanne shakes hands and says I HAVE YOUR DREAMCATCHER
HANGING ON MY WINDOW.

Woody says OH, BEAUTIFUL.

Maryanne says NICE TO MEET YOU FINALLY.
I WISH YOU THE VERY
BEST WITH THIS.

Woody says THANK YOU SO MUCH.

To Lorraine, he says NICE TO SEE YOU.

Lorraine says YOU JUST HAVE
A GOOD TIME.
COME ON IN HERE.
I WANT TO SHOW YOU EVERYTHING.

(Lyrical music plays)
Woody sings and says "I'VE BEEN A RAMBLER
MOST OF MY LIFE
AND LEARNED...
SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT SOUND.
LIKE A TENESSEE SOUND..."

A woman's voice says "GOTTA ROLL."

Lorraine says SO RAMBLE THEN ROLL? RIGHT.

."..I DON'T HANG PICTURES
TO MAKE THIS PLACE MY HOME
I MISS THE FAMILY
THAT I'VE NEVER KNOWN
THAT'S WHY I... JUST GOTTA RAMBLE
THAT'S WHEN I... JUST GOTTA ROLL
DON'T UNDERSTAND SOMETIMES
THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE DO
THEY MESMERIZE, THEY AWE-INSPIRE
THEY HORRIFY ME
THAT'S WHY I... READY AND ABLE
YOU MAY THINK THAT I
AM MENTALLY UNSTABLE..."

To Woody, the INTERVIEWER says WHAT DID YOU THINK?

Woody says I'M BLOWN AWAY.
THIS IS PHENOMENAL.
FROM ME PICKING
AROUND AND PLAYING,
HAVE IT TURN INTO THIS,
IT'S A PRODUCTION.

(Tape playing)
"GONNA HAVE TO ROLL
ONE DAY I...
WON'T HAVE TO RAMBLE
ONE DAY I...
WILL FIND MY WAY HOME."

Tears come to his eyes.

The buskers stand outside together as a nearby street artist works on a mural.

Kat says TONIGHT, WE'RE
CELEBRATING SPRING
SO IT'S A START TO OUR SEASON.
IT'S A START TO ALL OF OUR
BUSKING AND BEING OUTSIDE.

(Lyrical music plays)
"RUNNIN' DOWN THE LINE...
JUST RUNNIN' DOWN THE LINE."

LORRAINE says IF WE WERE ABLE TO KEEP GOING,
AND TO CONTINUE RECORDING
ALL OF THE PEOPLE
THAT WE'VE MET
AND ALL OF THE OTHERS
WE'VE YET TO MEET,
I THINK THAT
WHAT WE WOULD FIND
IS THE STORY
OF HOW SOCIETY IS SO RICH,
BUT HAS FAILED SO MANY.

(Lyrical music plays)
A young busker sings and says "THROWN O'ER MY SHOULDER."

A girl says I GREW UP WITH THESE STORIES
FROM MY GRANDFATHER
AND FROM MY FATHER,
TELLING ME ABOUT,
"OH, THESE MUSICIANS
WITH THEIR GUITARS
ON THEIR BACK.
THAT'S ALL YOU NEED IS
YOUR GUITAR ON YOUR BACK."
SOME PEOPLE DON'T EVEN REALIZE
THAT PEOPLE ARE STILL
HOPPING FREIGHT TRAINS
TO GO TO PLACE TO PLACE
TO PLAY THEIR MUSIC,
BECAUSE THEY'VE SIMPLY
"LOST IT" IN LIFE,
AND THEY'RE JUST, "THAT'S IT.
I'M GOING TO DO MY MUSIC."

(Lyrical music plays)
A red-haired girl sings and says "SOME LIKE ME WERE LOST
BEFORE THEIR
JOURNEY HAD BEGUN."

A blond young man sings and says "BREAK FOR THE CALM, NOW."
(UNCLEAR)

KAT says WHEN YOU DECIDE
TO HIT THE STREET,
THAT MEANS YOU'VE GIVEN UP.
THAT'S IT, I'M DONE.
AND ALL THESE PEOPLE
ARE AT THAT STAGE.
IT'S ALMOST LIKE THEY
FIND EACH OTHER TOGETHER,
AND IT'S JUST A LOT EASIER
THAN FINDING IT WITH ANYBODY ELSE.
YOU HAVE TO KNOW PAIN
AND HEARTACHE TO BE OUT THERE.

(guitar and banjo music plays)
Night falls. A bonfire blazes.

KAT says "SO, THIS IS... MY SOUL."
(Guitar and banjo music plays)
Kat sings and says "YOUNG ONE, SHE'S ALMOST
(UNCLEAR) GOT NO ONE
(UNCLEAR)
SATAN MAY HAVE
STOLEN MY SOUL
OH, BUT I'D NEVER GO
NEVER GO HOME...
YEAH, SATAN MAY
OWN MY SOUL
OH, BUT I'D NEVER GO
NEVER GO HOME."
BOXCARS AND (UNCLEAR)
(UNCLEAR)
SATAN MAY HAVE
SOLD MY SOUL
BUT I'D NEVER GO...
NEVER GO HOME
YEAH, SATAN MAY
OWN MY SOUL
BUT I'D NEVER GROW
NEVER GROW OLD.
FEELINGS IN YOUR BONES
CREEPS UP FROM BELOW...
OH! I'LL NEVER GO, NEVER GO HOME
OH! I'LL NEVER GROW, NEVER GROW OLD."

The end credits roll.

Directed, Written and Produced by Shelley Saywell.

Produced by Deborah Parks.

Edited by Deborah Palloway C.C.E.

Executive Producer TVO, Jane Jankovic.

Produced by Bishari Film Productions Inc. in association with TVO...
and with Knowledge Network. Canada 2015.

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